Lyrical Theology Thursday: Lecrae – “Desperate”
Posted on 20. May, 2010 by William Jacobson in Music, Theology
Desperate
Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your steadfast love;
according to your abundant mercy
blot out my transgressions.
Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
and cleanse me from my sin! -Psalm 51:1-2
Man, have I gone through this. I remember my first semester in Bible College falling into sin that I never thought I would. I literally felt like the scum of the earth. And long story short, this was the main factor for me not returning to school once that semester was done. I couldn’t shake the guilt or sliminess that I felt from then on. This particular sin messed me up real bad. I went to school on fire and looking to become a faithful preacher of God’s word and pastor to His people. But instead, after one semester I bowed out and retreated back to home base to get my head and other things together. A year and a half later, I’m still feeling the effects of my guilt from that time. So I can definitely understand what Lecrae is going through in this song. As a matter of fact, this song helped out back then in my darkest moments. Lecrae is founding member of the 116 Clique and Reach Records. “Desperate” is off his 3rd album entitled “Rebel”. This is by far his most successful album financially speaking. The album hit number 3 on the iTunes All Hip Hop charts right underneath secular giants, Lil Wayne and Young Jeezy. So Lecrae has definitely made a name for himself and his music. But most importantly, his God.
[Hook: Cam]
I’m so desperate, I can’t believe I’ve sinned against you
Create in me a clean heart (I’m so sorry)
Your mercy is what I need
[Verse 1: Lecrae]
Woke up this morning too depressed and shamed to leave my bed
Can’t stand to see my own reflection so I hang my head
Feel like a disappointment like the scum of the earth
I’m so hurt I know you see I can’t cover my dirt
My souls dying hearts weak and I can’t even cry
I’m sposed to run to you but WHY I’m such an evil guy
The sun’s shining but for me it’s the darkest of days
Try to pretend it never happened but the guilt remains
I leave the house it feels like everybody knows I did it
Feels like they reading my mind and know the sin I committed
Through your blood I’m aquitted but my heart doesnt get it
Oh God I’m desperate for Help cause I’m grieving your Spirit
I couldn’t sing in the sunday service, Lord I felt fake
And when they started communion I just made an escape
I’m in need of your grace
Feels like you hid your face
Lead me back to cross and show me my sins erased
[Verse 2: Lecrae]
I’m waste deep in my pity
Is Satan tryna trick me and tell me you won’t forgive me
Cause it’s startin to get me
Jesus help me quickly I hate wrong I’ve done
I know we all fall but I feel like the only one
Feels like I should be shunned
Should I punish myself
I know it’s dumb cause by your death all my sin has been dealt
But my sin is been felt
I didn’t want to do it
But what I want to do I don’t
I swear I’m gonna to lose it
Try to open my bible I need to read your pages
I need you Lord but my guilt has got me feeling so faithless
Help me see where your face is
Take me back to the basics
Help me find my joy in you and not people and places
My sin is ever before me I turned my back on you
Oh father break and restore me to bring me back to you
[Verse 3: Lecrae]
Have mercy on me God according to your steady love
Wipe away my transgression and wash me in your blood
Create in me a clean heart renew a right spirit
Don’t take your Spirit away your Presence keep me near it
I’m waiting patience on you Lord I know you hear my cry
Restore your Joy in me
For you alone I live and die
It’s you I Glorify cause you don’t want my sacrifice
You want me broken and contrite trusting in the Christ
I confess to you my sin and you show me mercy
I turn away from it demonstrating that you are worthy
Over lust, over pride, over all sin
Is my affection for Jesus is who died for all them
I was lost now I’m found I was toss to the ground
My sin weighed on me heavy but I am no longer bound
As sure as Christ wears the crown
I know that grace will abound
And even when I feel lost I know in You I am found
